Week 1: Who Am I?

In the first week of the 52 Weeks of Me, I think I may have been (as Treebeard would say) a little hasty. I have always struggled with writing about who I am as a person and defining myself as something other than what I do or what I’m interested in. But the whole point of this project is to grow in this ability and in my understanding of myself, so how can I measure that without a starting point? So here it is, a taste of who I am.

dinah-resized

I’ve said it many times, but my passions define who I am. Whether it’s my passion for literature, traveling, eating good food, learning something new, or simply enjoying a beautiful day, I find it difficult to separate who I am from what I care about.

So why do I feel that I can be defined by my passions without it being a limiting description? I think it’s because the fact that I’m such a passionate person is a very telling characteristic. I’ve known people who simply lacked passion and to some degree, I always had trouble understanding what motivated them.

I may just be 26 year old, but in a lot of ways I’m a little old lady. I’m early to bed, early to rise. I drink an absurd amount of tea and watch a ridiculous number of BBC serials while re-reading the Victorian era literature they’re based on.

kite-flying

At the same time, I’m a child at heart who loves having a good time, going on adventures, learning new things, and just being silly. I’m as likely to make witty puns as I am to make dick jokes at the expense of, well, whoever is nearest at hand.

I’m an adventuress determined to find excitement and a fresh outlook on life every day, even if it otherwise appears to be just another day in a list of identical days. Instead, I try to find the joy in each day, especially when it’s remarkably similar to the one before.

I won’t pretend that I always succeed, but I like to stay optimistic. I believe that the only way to remain optimistic like this is to allow myself one day every so often to indulge in a bout of negativity. Not quite pessimism – more like cynicism. But I don’t let it temper my disposition at the end of the day.

fun-with-the-girls

There are few people in this world I consider true friends. But when I’m with them, I somehow manage to care even less what people think of me. When we’re together, it’s like no time has passed and we’re all suddenly 5-10 years younger.

I had some rough years growing up in which I was far from accepted by my peers. I was the butt of many jokes and teased mercilessly day after day. After years of this, I found a small group of people who accepted me, but have continued to be more skilled at making acquaintances than friends.

On the other hand, I am really dam good at making acquaintances. It’s a fact that has fooled many people to believe that I’m more socially savvy than I am. My socially awkward tendencies are overlooked (and frequently disbelieved) because I’ve gotten so good at hiding them. Despite that, I do love meeting new people and can get into social situations happily – I just need to ensure I have an out if needed.

spinning-fire

If there’s a chance for me to try something new and exciting, I have a hard time turning it down. Especially when it’s at little to no cost to me. Give me a flaming baton and a tip or two and I’ll give it a whirl. I’ve traveled the world (not nearly enough of it yet), jumped out of an airplane, and dreamed only of continuing my journey through life, wherever it takes me.

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Comments

  1. That first picture of you is cavity-inducing – just sayin’. heh

    This is a grand experiment you’re undertaking. Writing about yourself is never easy. You never know if you’re sharing too much or not enough to get the message across. That said, this is a good start thus far.

    Sidenote: No more pictures with Pabst. You’re better than that.

  2. wyatthaplo says:

    Lovely selection of pictures you have here. I really like the first one its cute 🙂

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